Where does this heart belong to? Where does this soul belong to?
I dreamt of paradise, to be settled, for this soul to at least sit down.
Only to you I submit myself, my Lord. Grant me your light, grant me your guidance, grant me the way you want me to follow. Grant me not the darkness, of present and the future, as of the past.
Show me my path, as you want it. Until I found my paradise, your paradise.
Aku ada jawapan untuk kau selamat di dunia dan di akhirat.
1. Kau buat baik dengan Allah, Allah buat baik dengan kau. Kau buat baik dengan manusia, manusia buat baik dengan kau. Give and take. Take and give. HabluminAllah, Habluminanas.
2. Hidup adalah untuk cari redha Allah. Sebab tu ada hidupnya panjang, ada hidupnya pendek. Tujuan semua orang adalah sama. Cuma jalan sahaja berbeza.
3.Allah sayang kita, sebab tu kita diuji di dunia, Allah nak tengok kita sayang Dia ataupun sebaliknya.
Kau dah besar, aku dah besar. Pandai-pandai la faham. Life starts when you start thinking about death, not just when you're aged 40.
maybe i should start pouring more ideas into this blog... have lots and lots of thoughts, just haven't get the chance to share it lately... well, good things are deserved to be preserved, right?
Assalamualaikum and welcome back there lovely musketeers! phewwwww what a dusty blog indeed... Let's do some review throughout 2014, while i'm cleaning up the mess here... hoho
This one surely be my highlight of the year... Alhamdullillah I was promoted to be the Exco 2 Sports and Recreational Dept. for SRCUTP 14/15... Mistakes done and lesson learnt... I'm very grateful to experience all of those throughout the tenure... and many thanks to all comrades by my side for supporting me when the time I need you guys the most! And i'm very sorry for all my wrongdoings and things i wasn't suppose to speak... No hard feelings eh... haha
I dunno why this one come into highlight... but I pretty sure I kinda like this pic... look so profesional... and handsome too... ehhh~ ahha narcissism alert... This pic was snapped during I became the MC for National Student Leader Conference 2014 at Port Dickson... and the outfit was sponsored by my friends, due to forgetfulness of me to bring on my own, although was briefed with several times... okay move along now... -..-
Alhamdullillah I was also been selected to go for Cultural Exchange Program at Oita, Japan... Many questioned me how the heck I got through the selection... Honestly, I just send in my CV and taadaaa 10 people made it... but I believe in rezeki, therefore alhamdullillah again for this wonderful opportunity... I have to admit that it's quite fascinating to get know many new things... we went to various places such as Beppu, Fukuoka, Suspension Bridge, and also other production factories... This pic was taken during our visit at Hatchobaru Steam Generator Plant, located at mountainous area and the temperature was 7 degree celcius! Some of us didn't brought the sweater (genius...), but gladly the guider sensei treat us all with some hot coffee at the vending machine... so now I see why Japanese really like canned drinks... ahha
Well, I have to say the Gunung Yong Yap experience was an awesome one, despite what a heck of a journey (before, during, and after the hiking)... Alhamdullillah it was my first time in hiking and managed to complete one G7... I'm sorry for my mistakes for not able to provide a good event on this one, but I hope you guys really like it... and thank you so much for being in this part of the experience!
and there's me and the teammates, selfie with Datuk Zambry Kadir during Majlis Berbuka Puasa at his house... he's a very friendly guy and what an honour to have a little chat with him... Thank you so much Datuk for invite us in!
watchaaaaaa! ahha this pic was snapped during the Ultimate Frisbee Tournament... Our team (the Baturangers) managed to get 5th place, we see it as a good achievement because we all start from rock bottom, absolutely rookies... Since this tournament, we all have this weird addiction to play frisbee... and we have our own frisbee team (PetrOrangers) and we all sworn to join all frisbee tournament held in UTP... lulz~
Saving the best for the last.. Husna! Look at her isn't she adorable... hihi... We share good memories, we go through strong hardships, we face difficult times... I can't imagine if you weren't there... Thank you for being by my side throughout this year... and i'm sorry for mistakes that i made to you throughout we know each other... haa nanti whatsapp kita elaborate lagi... hihi
ehhh... kejapnya dah kemas dah tempat ni... yayy... haha that's it for now... till we meet again next time... toodles~ ... Assalamualaikum :)
ayah pernah ceritakan kepadaku... orang yang pertama mengazankan aku ketika aku baru lahir ialah tokwan... aku tanya kenapa bukan ayah je yang azankan... ayah jawab, sebab tokwan sayang sangat-sangat, walaupun time tu belum lahir...
ketika aku kecil.. aku banyak meluangkan masa bersama tokwan.. ketika itu, aku sekeluarga menetap di Kepala Batas, Pulau Pinang...
ketika itu aku masih berumur 3 atau 4 tahun... ingatan ku agak kabur tapi tidak akan ku lupa setiap saat yang aku ingat bersama tokwan... tiap pagi ketika mama dan ayah ku ingin ke kerja, mereka pasti menghantarku ke rumah tokwan... dan sudah pastinya tokwan tersenyum ceria di muka pintu, menantikan kedatangan ku, sambil sarapan sudah pun disiapkan oleh tok... kami menjamu sarapan di ruangan hadapan rumah, dan ya seperti biasa, tokwan pasti akan menghirup milo panas kegemarannya sambil menyapu roti jem strawberi...
tokwan selalu membawaku bersiar-siar... kadang-kala kami ke taman burung... ada pula masa kami ke perpustakaan... ketika itu tokwan masih lagi sihat dan tiada sakit-sakit kaki... tokwan ketika itu gigih drive kereta mazda classic putih nya itu, yang digelarkan sebagai kereta PY, dinamakan semperna nombor plat kereta tersebut... walaupun keadaan kereta yang panas dan tiada aircond, namun aku masih seronok untuk bersiar-siar dengan beliau...
tokwan selalu memberi hadiah kepada ku... aku ingat lagi beliau pernah menghadiahkan sebuah beg Power Rangers berwarna hitam ketika aku baru ingin mendaftarkan diri ke tadika.... dan aku melompat keriangan menerima beg tersebut... senyuman tokwan jelas terukir lebarnya...
ketika aku umur 6 tahun, kami sekeluarga berpindah ke Tanjung Malim, Perak, kerana ayah dan mama mendapat offer untuk sambung belajar di UPSI... masih segar dalam ingatanku yang aku pernah menangis teresak-esak kerana tidak mahu berpisah daripada tokwan... aku meraung dan pegang tokwan dan tok seerat-eratnya... mereka pun sedih untuk meninggalkan ku namun apa kan daya... setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan...
makin lama, makin jarang masa yang aku luangkan bersama tokwan dan tok ku yang berada di kampung... tetapi kami tidak pernah tinggal untuk meraikan raya bersama-sama setiap tahun... tokwan selalu memberikan aku duit raya lebih daripada cucu-cucu nya yang lain... mungkin sebab aku cucu nya yang sulung... hihi
ada suatu ketika dulu, semasa aku form 2 mungkin... tokwan datang melawat ke rumah aku di Ipoh... susunan buku sekolah ku berselerak dan tidak teratur... aku hanya membiarkan buku-buku tersebut pada lantai... tokwan menyedari perkara ini, oleh itu secara senyap-senyap semasa aku ke sekolah, dia menghadiahkan aku sebuah rak buku supaya buku-buku tersebut dapat disusun dengan baik... tokwan siap menyusunkan buku-buku tersebut untuk aku... namun aku silap... aku tidak menghargainya.. hari tu aku bad mood... aku pulang ke rumah dan melihat susunan buku ku dikacau oleh orang... aku marah dan menyusun semula, tanpa mengendahkan tokwan dan tok... aku dapat rasakan mereka kecil hati terhadap ku ketika itu... maafkan diri ku yang tersilap ini tokwan...
semakin lama aku menjalani kisah pendewasaan ini, semakin jauh diriku untuk bersama dengan tokwan dan tok... aku semakin jarang untuk contact mereka dan bertanya khabar... bukan aku tidak ingat mereka, cuma aku sibuk dengan hal duniawi ku ini... maafkan aku kerana jarang menjenguk dan bertanya khabar...
kek tokwan semperna hari jadi terakhirnya.. maaf sangat tokwan sebab e tak dapat balik...
hari-hari akhir tokwan banyak diluangkan di hospital Metro, Sungai Petani, Kedah... beliau dimasukkan ke hospital berikutan jatuh di bilik air, dan pengsan... namun aku sempat untuk berjumpa dengan nya sekali sahaja ketika beliau di hospital... beliau kelihatan tenat, tapi masih boleh bersembang dan ceria seperti biasa...
Jumaat 2 Mei 2014 bersamaan 2 Rejab 1435 H... kira-kira pada pukul 12 tengah hari, ketika itu aku dan ayah sedang bersiap-siap untuk solat jumaat... kemudian ayah mendapat panggilan daripada tok, bahawa tiba-tiba tokwan dalam keadaan tidak sedar semasa menjalani rawatan dialysis.. hatiku berdebar kencang dan mengatakan adakah sudah sampai masa... tidak lama kemudian tok menghubungi ayah semula, memberitahu bahawa tokwan sudah pun meninggal dunia...
ayah kelihatan pucat dan sebak sikit mungkin... ye lah siapa tidak terasa jika kehilangan orang yang disayangi... petang itu, kami sekeluarga bergegas pulang ke Kepala Batas...
dada aku sebak melihat tokwan, baring tidak bernyawa, aku tidak berhenti beristighfar, sedekahkan al fatihah dan bacaan yaasin... tokwan baik orangnya... banyak jasa beliau untuk keluarga, agama dan masyarakat... tokwan dulu juga seorang guru yang disegani ramai dan amat dikenali dengan sifat mesra nya... tokwan juga tidak jemu membaca al-quran... insyaallah beliau ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman...
setelah selesai dimandikan dan dikafankan... aku berpeluang untuk cium tokwan buat kali terakhirnya... wangi dan harum... seolah-olah beliau sudah pun bahagia... dari situ aku yakin insyaallah Allah akan melindungi tokwan dari sebarang azab kubur dan akhirat...
tokwan selamat dikebumikan kira-kira jam 11 malam itu... bacaan talkin untuk tokwan amat menusuk kalbu ku... melihat keadaan tokwan yang akan menghadapi alam barzakh berseorangan, membuatkan aku risau tentang nasib diriku pula... namun begitu, aku yakin insyaallah tokwan pasti dapat melaluinya dengan baik dan mudah...
went to johor for first in my life (/)
get personal car (/)
involve in at least 3 utp events in a year ( )
get new phone (/)
find new "calon orang rumah" ( )
get new laptop (/)
assalamualaikum... hi everyone!
well alhamdullillah i managed to get most of it done... 2013 is indeed a fantastic year... went for a cruise, involve in anak yatim event, EOG2013, went to Singapore with housemates... woah, those are some of great memories that i wont forget...
insyaallah, 2014 will be another excellent year.. since i'm already in 2nd year degree, i think should be more serious in my study... and not to forget collecting more certs and experience for internship... may Allah ease for me... insyaallah...
2014 targets:
continue to find new "calon orang rumah" ( )
buy one more game controller ( )
improve communicating skills ( )
decrease body weight and maintain ( )
.... more targets to come...
assalamualaikum and hi everyone... salam eidul adha and hopefully u all are in the pink...
here's something i wanna share out... just a short story and just for fun...
tiba-tiba teringat time form 1 dulu... masa interview nak jadi pengawas sekolah... time tu mr. kooi (my maths teacher later on in form 3) yang jadi tukang interviewernya...
mr. kooi ni antara cikgu yang agak garang la time sekolah dulu... dia selalu ada dekat depan gate sekolah time pagi, before perhimpunan, to make sure budak datang awal... dan jaga traffic depan sekolah... sepatutnya tu kerja pak guard sekolah... tapi tah la... tu memang hobi dia... so takkan nak halang kan... haha
so, sebelum aku diinterview, dia merotan budak kaw-kaw punya sebab mencarut depan dia... budak tu pun bengong jugak... sapa suruh cari pasal dengan dia... bila tengok dia gitu, terus jadi cuak... dalam hati aku kata, habis la aku lepas ni... boleh jadi meroyan ni....
kemudian aku diinterview...
rasa seram sejuk menyelubungi diri... apakah soalan yang ditujukan... adakah aku dapat menjawabnya... arghh... tidakk...
skip to the middle of the interview...
mr. kooi : kamu ni betul ke nak jadi pengawas?
aku : ya, betul cikgu... saya yakin boleh pikul tanggungjawab ni cikgu...
mr. kooi : sure ni?
aku : ya, cikgu...
mr. kooi : ok... kenapa kamu nak jadi pengawas?
aku : ermm... sebab... ermm...
mr. kooi : apa? cepat la jawab...
aku : sebab mak saya suruh, cikgu....
seriously... tu je yang aku boleh fikir time tu...
suasana jadi krik krik sekejap... arghh bengong... pegi jawab cam tu... habis la interview aku... tapi lepas tu...
dia gelak terbahak-bahak... tak sangka... ingatkan dia ni tak reti gelak... dalam hati ni ada taman jugak rupanya... apa yang bestnya, dia terima je jawapan aku tu... lega hati aku...
so tenang hati aku bila keluar dari bilik interview tu... lega bai.. hahaha
walaupun aku main-main je dengan interview tu... well, at least dapat jugak jadi pengawas... ye la.. kecik lagi kot... mana la aku nak reti interview bagai ni... lalala~ but still... alhamdullillah... rezeki...
so, konklusinya... hurmm... tah la... hangpa pikiaq la sendiri...
that's all from me this time... just a short scribble... haha...
all praise to Allah for giving me another chance to scribble on this blog... and here goes my result for May 2013... bismillahirahmannirahim...
syukur alhamdullillah it's a dean's list... and still able to maintain it... i targeted for a higher pointer, but its okay... Allah knows whats the best for me...
something to highlight about... my vector calculus!!! arghhh... how come boleh dapat B+... i targeted an A for that... nevertheless, i think i made mistakes or careless in final exam... owh well... benda dah lepas... xde rezeki la kot...
structural geology and mineralogy are seems to be in the range of my target... alhamdullillah it didn't fell out to the C's... but i must improve more next time... those kind of subjects are very important for me throughout the course.. therefore i cannot make silly moves again next time... nanti nak cari makan cam ne woi...
all in all, i'm quite satisfied with the result... alhamdullillah my parents were ok about it... and insyaallah i will strive harder and smarter for next upcoming semester... please pray for me ok peeps... ehhe
i think that's all from me this time... thanks for dropping by here... bye and assalamualaikum... :)
all praise to Allah the Almighty for giving me chances and rezeki to further on, scribbling on this rather dull blog... errr... ok... anyway... on the 19th, 20th and 21th of September 2013, V4SR had organized the Jalinan Kasih event... alhamdullillah the event turned out so well, although they are various obstacles that had to be go through.. the event is like some sort of escorting the orphans from Darussalam Orphanage House, Simpang Pulai around UTP and provide interesting activities for them to enjoy with... i'm not a V4SR commitee, but i'm just laying some help to these peeps, due to extreme boredomness at home... ahha... this fantastic event had only 8 commitees and the activities held were from spontaneous ideas... seriously... last minute work... lalala~
1) Picking up the orphans
2) Night activities with the Japanese exchange students from University of Tokyo
3) Kenduri kahwin Datin at Hotel Seri Malaysia, Ipoh
4) Evening activities with the orphans
5) Morning tour around UTP
6) Impromptu games and closing ceremony
7) Sending the orphans back to Darussalam house
8) Committee dinner at Seoul Garden
well, that's the end for our journey... alhamdullillah everything went out well and we had so much fun... insyaallah this remarkable event will always be remembered in our hearts... all in all, thanks for zooming through this post... bye, take care and assalamualaikum... till we meet again...
